Here is the dummy with the up-do I did the first night 3 times over.. it turned out really pretty though.

HoPe It KeEpS GeTtInG bEtTeR....

Hooray! Hooray! Whoo Hoo!!! Things are turning around for me.. I am so excited.. come to find out they moved me away because they wanted to keep their eye on another girl, which the next day they cleaned out her locker with police in tow.. and then they kicked her out of school.. Crazy.. Crazy!!! I don't know the full story.. but I got my station back.. whoo hoo.. I am by my friends again.. Hopefully they just don't move them away from me now..

So I did a color on a woman from India tonight.. she had the most beautiful long shiny dark brown healthy hair.. never been colored.. well until tonight anyways.. she wanted a light brown hair.. why is it that we are never happy with the hair that we get??? So anyways I colored all of her hair, her roots at the end processed a little faster than the ends.. and well she is coming back in tomorrow to have it colored darker.. We didn't find the happy medium tonight.. but that is okay because I did my first official hair color at school finally... whoo hoo..

So Saba (the client) was telling me about her life.. and she said that she just moved here from India, because she got married in July 08' and has been here for only a month. It was a ARRANGED MARRIAGE.. yeah.. I didn't think that they did those anymore.. she said that her mom picked several guys for her, and then she got to choose out of those guys.. and his mom picked several women for him, and he had to choose the final one.. crazy!!!!! She said that she now lives here with him finally, and to top it off they live with his parents and grandparents.. I so admire her. I don't think I could just marry someone that my mom picked out for me, and then move to another country and live with all the in-laws.. I am sure she is having a hard time to adjusting or maybe not.. maybe that would just be me.. At the rate that I am dating.. maybe I should get an arranged marriage.. ha ha..

They seem happy together.. she of course wants to have babies right away.. he would like to wait 8 or 9 years.. they definitely have their differences that they need to work out.. but don't we all.

I am just way excited because I can honestly testify that with faith and alot of prayer things can turn around.. I know that Heavenly Father has blessed me in this life with a wonderful family, and the best friends that I could ever wish for.. I am not sure what is in the future for me.. I guess that is why they call it a test so that you can gain your testimony.. I would have to say that mine is growing with everything that I have been through in the past 6 years.. but looking back I know that Heavenly Father has been with me the whole time.. which is the best blessing of all.

I am off to bed.. hope to get some good sleep tonight... I need it.. So excited for Spring break.. yay!! no school all night week.. what a relief. Good night!

First night not so good.

So I started my first night on the cosmetology side. I was nervous once again.. Things turned out great.. they seated me and all my friends all together.. very unheard of for the cosmo side they are alot more.. well I can't think of just one word to describe it.. cause it is just so different than the barbering side.. which I miss so much at this point.. sad I know since it was only my first night of well once again too many words to describe it.. I just think straight right now.. ha ha.. Well anyways our instructors have been known to have favorites.. I unfortunately do not think that I am one of them.

They decided that I didn't need a client tonight.. although pretty much everyone else got one. Then at the end of the night they told me that they are moving me to the abyss I mean the other side of the lab.. there is one girl over there one.. well make that two as of tomorrow.. I think I have been officially voted off the island.. Since I was the one and only student decided to move.. this sucks.. On a more positive note at least I know the one other girl, and we talk sometimes.. I guess I shouldn't let them know that we are friends.. they might just sit me in a corner all by myself.. Also they don't even forwarn you that your client / walk-in is there.. they have some one just bring them by.. well that was the same on the barbering side.. but I sat by the door so I kindof knew in advance what to expect.

Anyways so I started to do my up-do tonight.. yeah.. let's say that I am not a natural at that.. I decided to call my mannequin head "Mangey" tonight.. after rolling around in my trunk for quite some time.. I couldn't even get a brush in her hair.. well I did but it almost got stuck in there for good. So I did an up-do to have the main instructor tell me to fix it a little.. I put so many bobby pins in there.. you would have thought that a bomb went off with them inside.. I honestly didn't know what was pinning what back.. so I did it again.. and well of the loops made it look a little Princess Laya from Star Wars.. I don't think it helped when I shared my not funny comment with the instructor.. so she told me to do it again.. and she would come help me.. finally it turned out.. with help of course.. I so wish that I was a natural at this. I so love and miss barbering too, it's weird to think of how I thought they were throwing us to the sharks when we started on that side.. now I just feel hopeless.. so needless to say it was not such a good first night.

To hoping that it gets better.. or sorry girls I will be doing men only!

I wonder???

I wonder when it will come the time for him to feel remorse?
I wonder when the day will come that I will be happy and in love again?
I wonder if how one day you are on one course in your life? And the next you are on another?
I wonder if he even remembers today or what once was?
I wonder why we have what the other wanted?
I wonder why after all this time.. I am still hurting? Am I broken? Will it ever stop?
I wonder why none of this seems to affect him at all?
I wonder why I still cry? and he never did.
I wonder when it will feel like I have a heart to give again.. maybe there is nothing left.

I know that I am grateful for my life, and everything that I have endured this far. I just sometimes wonder why things have turned out the way that they have. Why I wanted the marriage and family.. and he wanted to be alone.. and look who got what??? I wonder when it will all make sense to me? I wonder why now?? am I having this meltdown or whatever you call it?

I know that I am thankful for the opportunities that I have now.. that I know wouldn't be possible if back then would be today.

I just have a hard time.. especially today of all days.. I just wonder why he even wanted to get married, it that is never what he wanted?? Or why he said that he loved me, when he never meant it??

I know this isn't the most positive post I have put on here.. but I just needed to get this out of my mind, or just out there.. so I can have some kindof release if that is possible.

The Biggest Compliment yet.. loved it!!! :)

So the other night at school we were pretty slow, and my barbering instructor Paul's regular clients came in for a hair cut since Paul has been booked for a few weeks now at his shop.. and Paul chose me out of all the students to do his regular client, and I asked him why after and he said that because he thinks that I am a really good barber.. whoo hoo!!! I was shocked because normally you don't want to give one of your regulars to a new student.. but it was awesome.. also I have been getting $3 tips from guys now.. I must be improving.. yay!!! I love the barbering side.. I am excited to switch to the cosmo side in March.. but a little sad too.. I could cut little boys' and men's hair all day.. I love it.. I need some more shaves.. if any of you guys are interested come on in.. The hair cuts are $2 and the shaves which include a facial massage are only $1. cheap cheap cheap!!!!

Well I better get back to work.. I will post some pics from school soon..

Fascination

INSTRUCTIONS:1. Put your iPod or other music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the NEXT button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got this from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?Keep on keepin on

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?Dangerous and Sweet

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?I feel it all

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?What goes around comes around

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?Decode

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?You belong with me

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN?When I fall in love

WHAT IS 2+2?She holds the key

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?Lose my breath

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?The Sweet Escape

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP??I won't disagree

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE??Your love

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?Lost without you

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?Bitter Sweety Symphony

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?Hella Good

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?Emotions

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?Back in baby's arms

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?I'm gonna be alright

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?I hate this part

HOW WILL YOU DIE?Like a song

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?We will not grow old

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?It's my life

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?I'm leavin' on a jet plane (hawaiian mix)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?Come on

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?Relax

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?Neverlost

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?Clumsy

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?I'm not over

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?Fascination

First shave and ready for more.. I think!!??

Well tonight at school I did my first straight razor shave on a guy named Leo. It's amazing how I remembered his name being that I usually don't remember the name two seconds after I start cutting hair.. need to work on the memory a little more.. ha ha.. but he was good looking.. I wonder if that had anything to do with it?? ;) Anyways it was good I only nicked a tiny little spot by the corner of the mouth.. I also did my bestest taper cut on a little boy tonight.. I have to say I would mind cutting little boys hair all day long.. so yeah that is school.. I can't believe that January is already gone.. by the first week of March we will be in mid-terms and switching to the cosmo side.. I am a little sad to be leaving the barber side.. ironic since I feared it the most.. oh well.. I am excited to do all the ladies that I work with.. they said that I could do whatever I would like to their hair.. I think they will be taking back that statement after they first sit down in the chair.. yep.. I am sure that they are just leading me on.. ha ha..

(Sorry Todd you weren't my first shave.. by the way when are you coming in.. I have 9 more shaves to pass off.)

Anyways I went to the dentist this week.. it was soooo nice to get my teeth cleaned after not having it for almost 3 years now.. no insurance issues.. in case you were wondering.. Anyways they put on this brush on flouride now.. it makes it feel like you haven't brushed your teeth in like a week.. Furry teeth.. Now all my teeth are sensitive and hurt :( Can't wait to go back next month and get the cavities fixed.. at least my dentist now has the laughing gas.. have to pay extra.. insurance doesn't cover it, but I think it will be well worth it.. before the BIG needles go in.. hate those.

Oh yeah! I had my nose waxed this week with my friend Megan.. she talked me into it.. It DIDN'T hurt at all.. so crazy.. but I am serious.. no pain at all.. however, if you laugh while the stick with wax is up your nose it vibrates and tickles.. darn girl shouldn't have told me that.. I couldn't stop laughing. ha ha..

Well I need to get some sleep..